Monday, June 23, 2008

FINAL MOVE


24th June 2008

- This morning was kinda shady..i had an answer for everything i confused. Allrite, i asked before, between a move that will made me happier but hurt the rest and another which is sacrifice myself for the sake of others..i chose the first one. I think i regretted a little but then i knew that, was the best for everyone. I felt guilty, sad..anyway, promise me, live life to the fullest, fulfill ur dreamz without me standing on ur way, u have a brighter, healthier and nicer future compared to mine. Take care dear, i will never forget everything u gave me. Thnx for being with me always. One day if u need my help, just tell me as i will do anything i can to make ur life cheerful. Sry, again and again. In conclusion, i am selfish and deserve the worst end.

by Pure Heart
Today I m feeling so low as you are not with me,
I miss u every moment wherever I may be.

My mind sets no where and just thinks about you,
I wanna talk a lot with you but our talks are due.

My lips are trembling and calling your name,
I cannot see you in front of me and I m going through this pain.

My tears are in trauma should they flow out or lay inside,
they want to roll down my cheeks but could not decide.

My one hand holds the other as it cannot hold yours,
It wanders for only your warm touch , I m sure.

My heart beats gets faster wishing you might be here,
giving me the feel of joy, love and care.

How much I love you is all i know,
i just feel it and I dont want to show.

I miss you with every beat of my heart,
no doubt you are the only one of whom i can think about.....

- In my mind, it was drizzling for all day, i wonder when can i see the rainbow, again!!i thought i must seriously plan for a new direction, a new goal and a new life. Today it's all about someone, that has been with me for so long. I owe u, is just what i can say. One thing in my mind now is the one i love the most, my chess pieces! It has been one year plus i m hibernating, still remain dreaming, hoping for my revival. The problem, i never really put in effort. Papa mama, can u pls support me for one last time, i misses several chances to play in ASEAN, i misses the chance to be master, and i misses the chance to see how far i can go. I reli dunoe whether i can still do it, since i am getting weaker and weaker! But, i nid a chance. For so long, neither one of u hired a coach for me, neither one of u asked me to go oversea for training, and i remembered the night before i left home to defend my National title, daddy quarrelled with me for putting too much effort in chess and do not care about SPM. Pa, i am going to defend my title u know, without a coach, without a computer programs and just my brain. I just needed some support from both u..just a little to compete equally with the rest. I dont mind not having all those facilities, but what i want the most is love from papa mama, friends to raise my spirit in game. Am i asking too much? i dont know...But still, sry dad and mum for delivering such a bad result in SPM, i m really sry but i did try and i tried. Sry...sob...

- It has been so long since i achieved something in life. SARAWAK CHESS CLOSED Is just days from now, i really which i can join, still, no1 has to be the aim, but then i should not put too much pressure in me, let just set an aim to get top10 providing someone support me to Sarawak. I really love to revive my career as that's what makes me diff from the rest. That's what make me proud of myself for so long...

Friendster Horoscope for June 24, 2008
The Bottom Line
A meeting reveals a real problem -- you hold the key to the solution, so speak up.
In Detail
A meeting or informal discussion at work will reveal a real problem with how people are communicating -- or rather, miscommunicating. Before mid-day, it will become all too clear that people are not using the same terms to discuss the central issue. A translator is needed -- and you are the likely nominee. Good thing you are so knowledgeable when it comes to how things should work! You can be the voice of reason in this situation. You'll be a calming influence in the room. Get ready to be the hero.

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