SARAWAK CLOSED UPDATE(FINALIZE)

Seeding based on FIDE, i am second but that was my past year rating. according to national rating, i was seeded 8th.

1st game board 2~ termini Young 1530 vs Zhi Wen 1752
- different of 222rating points.
- black having a tough time to break the position but ended up win.
- Lucky as position drawish throughout the game.
- Performance very normal, ntg special or ntg noob.

2nd game board 2~ Zhi Wen vs Fabian
- i see he lanxi type
- ok, i win lo
- my game ok lo..he leave the tournament afta the game(pulled out)!!NOOB!

3rd game board 2~ Mohd Nasir vs Zhi Wen
- this guy not bad..rating 1850+..yoyo
- He think very long..lala..let me play time..
- Den he wanted to win but let me pawn immediately..gaotim!

4th game board 1~ Zhi Wen vs Abang reduan
- ZHI WEN DOWN! ma de...
- err..i started ok ok lo...juz move 20 his time ady used up half...
- den i lose a pawn, therefore plan a lot attack on king, u die or i die!
- ehem, say me play badly oso knot, say he pro oso not so..but ended up his way! nice game!
- Haiz........................................................................GG!

5th game board 2~ Abang Reezmi vs Zhi Wen
- I promise my ah ma! Grandmama that i will kill my nxt opponent!
- In move four...Leong Zhi Wen killed this guy without one blink of eye.
- Reezmi down! Zhi Wen on fire.

6th game board 2~ Zhi Wen vs Faeznor
- Ehem, this guy is currently Sarawak no1 junior. Won MSS Sarawak u-18. Awesome.
- He played french defence, the best opening to destroy Zhi Wen. I replied Qe2..a move that was played somewhere in 1800an..
- Well, the game flow my way and he was beaten.
- Yahoo, i m closer to fulfill my dream

7th game board 2~ Morsin Ahmad vs Zhi Wen
- Morsin was the second best player in Sarawak.
- We actually having somehow an equal strength.
- Aha, i was wearing the same shirt while i played Reduan.
- He played white with advantage and the game ended in a draw. Fine...

8th game vs Japeri Reduan
- He beat me 3years ago...err...however, i am stronger than him in term of rating.
- We drew and both are confirmed a top4 placing. Therefore, i am officially Sarawak Senior Team player.
- Bye bye to Selangor.

9th game vs Lim Kian Hua
- The 3rd best Sarawakian. We planned a draw but he requested a game outside the result.
- I accepted the challenge and he played really seriously while i was playing a fool on my pieces.
- I know he is just not up to strength to play me. Maybe, Zhi Wen is back. I can feel my Aura.
- This result placed me in second behind Reduan, the so called Warrior of Sarawak for 10years dy. Hey man, expect a better fight in upcoming years..someone is going to give in a fight now.
- A great great comeback.

~ In conclusion, the prices are rm150, flight tru n fro between Kuching KL, August. Free accomodation throughout Merdeka Chess Championship and a place in Sarawak team. I am back to my land where i was born. Finally, a dream come true i have to say. Papa, mama, i did it, once again without you! The funny stuff was, i have teammates which are ages, 30+,40+ and 50+..haha..i am the youngest! Pretty cool rite...

Thanks to Zer Yun for helping me to get my tickets. Thanks Chee Hoe for submitting my homeworks. Thanks Ah Guang for sending me to airport. Thanks Carrick for supporting me. And also, thnx National Master Edward Lee, for coaching me througout my games. Thanks GG client for being with me at Kuching. Thnx Zhi Wen for giving me a chance to prove myself. Thanks Air asia as everyone can fly with you. Thanks GKIM for accomodation, transportation, foods etc..u r the best!! allrite, thanks ah gong, ah ma for lending a hand to my stay at Kuching.
Thnx a bit of less than 3..for..forget me? nope!! for giving me another wonderful day!! Erm..i dont win more as u wish, but i smiled a lot more.

~ Gota update all my games here next time.(under construction) Have a nice day everyone.

FINAL MOVE

24th June 2008

- This morning was kinda shady..i had an answer for everything i confused. Allrite, i asked before, between a move that will made me happier but hurt the rest and another which is sacrifice myself for the sake of others..i chose the first one. I think i regretted a little but then i knew that, was the best for everyone. I felt guilty, sad..anyway, promise me, live life to the fullest, fulfill ur dreamz without me standing on ur way, u have a brighter, healthier and nicer future compared to mine. Take care dear, i will never forget everything u gave me. Thnx for being with me always. One day if u need my help, just tell me as i will do anything i can to make ur life cheerful. Sry, again and again. In conclusion, i am selfish and deserve the worst end.

by Pure Heart

Today I m feeling so low as you are not with me,

I miss u every moment wherever I may be.

My mind sets no where and just thinks about you,

I wanna talk a lot with you but our talks are due.

My lips are trembling and calling your name,

I cannot see you in front of me and I m going through this pain.

My tears are in trauma should they flow out or lay inside,

they want to roll down my cheeks but could not decide.

My one hand holds the other as it cannot hold yours,

It wanders for only your warm touch , I m sure.

My heart beats gets faster wishing you might be here,

giving me the feel of joy, love and care.

How much I love you is all i know,

i just feel it and I dont want to show.

I miss you with every beat of my heart,

no doubt you are the only one of whom i can think about.....

- In my mind, it was drizzling for all day, i wonder when can i see the rainbow, again!!i thought i must seriously plan for a new direction, a new goal and a new life. Today it's all about someone, that has been with me for so long. I owe u, is just what i can say. One thing in my mind now is the one i love the most, my chess pieces! It has been one year plus i m hibernating, still remain dreaming, hoping for my revival. The problem, i never really put in effort. Papa mama, can u pls support me for one last time, i misses several chances to play in ASEAN, i misses the chance to be master, and i misses the chance to see how far i can go. I reli dunoe whether i can still do it, since i am getting weaker and weaker! But, i nid a chance. For so long, neither one of u hired a coach for me, neither one of u asked me to go oversea for training, and i remembered the night before i left home to defend my National title, daddy quarrelled with me for putting too much effort in chess and do not care about SPM. Pa, i am going to defend my title u know, without a coach, without a computer programs and just my brain. I just needed some support from both u..just a little to compete equally with the rest. I dont mind not having all those facilities, but what i want the most is love from papa mama, friends to raise my spirit in game. Am i asking too much? i dont know...But still, sry dad and mum for delivering such a bad result in SPM, i m really sry but i did try and i tried. Sry...sob...

- It has been so long since i achieved something in life. SARAWAK CHESS CLOSED Is just days from now, i really which i can join, still, no1 has to be the aim, but then i should not put too much pressure in me, let just set an aim to get top10 providing someone support me to Sarawak. I really love to revive my career as that's what makes me diff from the rest. That's what make me proud of myself for so long...

Friendster Horoscope for June 24, 2008
The Bottom Line
A meeting reveals a real problem -- you hold the key to the solution, so speak up.
In Detail
A meeting or informal discussion at work will reveal a real problem with how people are communicating -- or rather, miscommunicating. Before mid-day, it will become all too clear that people are not using the same terms to discuss the central issue. A translator is needed -- and you are the likely nominee. Good thing you are so knowledgeable when it comes to how things should work! You can be the voice of reason in this situation. You'll be a calming influence in the room. Get ready to be the hero.

~POWER~

19 JUNE 2008

{ There's no promises, there's no responsibility, hence, you can leave for you better world}

~Today in so many cases, i saw, i chatted and i realized so much about attitude and power. I shall started with PROUD-a very bad attitude! I m a proud guy i think,but at least i maintain a distance somehow. I hate people teasing the weaker one for he is good in something...i did that? maybe but mostly on people who does not deserve any respect! People know their strength, but they act to be pro. Just to tell you, even faceless void, a dota hero can success in the end although it is so weak in the beginning! We care for our face, but over-protective make us weird.

~Early morning, i was with Danwil went to lend a hand for juniors' presentation. Hmph...Chee Hoe said he saw a noob presentation but for me that was okay or even some of them are better than me! Well, that shows his POWER rules. U know, u just cannot go against those pro bcoz they have the power to talk but i really felt that he went over sometimes.

~Then in the afternoon, i chatted a lot with Mr Lee on our friends personality! Well, we realize he aint received much respect from the rest for the way he behave. I am sorry if offences anyone in my life but then i really thought that i wont respect those who show no respect to others. Papa and mama taught me that for years. We discussed damn a lot but then it was all secret. Anyway, i shall conclude that i hate people ordering me to do this and do that when he/she is not pro enuf in that stuff!

~Allrite, someone said winning is not everthing. YUP, it is absolutely correct and easy to say! However, how many practise that? I m not going to accept loses in chess, Chee Hoe is not going to accept there's guy who is smarter than him in NUC, Wai Yong cannot accept to lose a dota match so to Carrick and his basketball! Yeik Hui i think dota too..that make me continue the quotation:..winning is not everything but people treated it as everything.

~Coming on to my group court case fight! I thought that it was an unneccessary assignment but both class want to win badly. It's a fight btw two titans named weng tat and chee hoe. I personally hoped that this will end up a draw. And also, in the group discussion made me realize i was actualy a small boy in my class...there are more clever people than me who can handle things well. I send my best wishes to all my classmates and i prayed the best for our group. Having another activity for BGC tomorrow..

Friendster Horoscope for June 19, 2008
The Bottom Line
A huge workload doesn't have to intimidate you. You can do this! You are a star.
In Detail
You are just finally coming around to understanding the true scope of the amount of work you have to do today -- at your job, in a romantic partnership, or in a friendship. This sudden realization could overwhelm you, but it doesn't have to. The soldier in you knows that you can do this! No task is too tough for you, especially if you are humble and honest about how you're feeling. Reach out to the other person (or people) involved in this task, and get them to contribute to the solution.

Kinda Free

PING PONG

DENG! After the gruelling fight, finally NUC ping pong come to its SEMi-Final. However, i am no longer lucky to get some byes anymore and lose out on the quarter final with 2-11, 3-11, 9-11!!haiz..someone said i dai sei! Btw, i think i ter-ponteng-ed again. Hee...

BANKRUPTCY
~ This has to be the first time in where i felt i am broke!! i mean, i use to have enough to spend but then this few days kinda weird. Dunoe why either. Hopefully, i can gain some supports from family asap. Hey papa mama, i nvr asked for any additional VItamin M before, hence, i guess i would asked for some days later. NO MONEY, NO GF, NO STUDY, NO FUTURE. Besides, anyone willing to offer me living allowances are pretty welcomed. I can serve you with skills on chess! hehe...not really pro but still one of the best u can find at NILAI.

LOVE
~ Finally, Carrick started to express his love to the one he loves. Come on, we support you as long as you are happy. His target is pretty sweet, charming, cute white but a lil short and fierce. Anyway, that doesnt matter as height aint the problem i suppose.
~ Btw, be a bird rather than an ostrich! Fly high with confidence..think positively even when u get the worst criticism because each person has their own strength and weaknesses in them, in me and in u!Get what i meant? i suppose u dont but still move based on ur heart and dont forget ur brain as well!

by Leap Of Faith aka Temps

I'm standing on a ledge,

Afraid to take that leap.

But I know if I don't now,

I never will.

I look over the edge,

And in my imagination,

I see your beautiful face before me.

My body gets warmer,

And the butterflies in my stomach won't go away.

Which makes me realize that no matter what,

My temperature rises each time you're around.

All these feelings for you reappear,

Which make me fall for you harder,

Making me more afraid to take that leap,

That leap of faith to fall in love with you.

My legs before me begin to tremble,

As I begin to lose control of my balance.

I'm scared to fall for you,

Because I'm afraid to know what comes after.

But I know that if it's not now, It'll be never.

So I'm ready to jump and fly,

For now I know that if I take that leap of faith;

I'll be taking that one chance,

before it vanishes before my eyes.

INTEC REN
~ Allrite, 11days left b4 u joined INTEC. Whether we still can chat as we always do, i dunoe. But then no matter wud happen, less than 3 is juz either minimize or maximize. There's no exit button in me. Sry for that but i do miss u a little in a little period.
~ Ni de car, jia you! NI de wireless, pay for it! Ni de education, oso jia you! Ni de life, be xing fu! Ni de future Bf, gen wo jiang! xie xie..

Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
The Bottom Line
Embrace your opportunistic tendencies -- they have served you well in the past.
In Detail
You might like to think that you don't have any opportunistic tendencies, but you do -- and you should embrace them! After all, they have served you well in the past. It's time to recognize your entire set of skills, not just the ones that make people feel all warm and fuzzy inside. You are a complicated person, which means you are an interesting person! So do not feel guilty if an opportunity comes along that you don't think you deserve. If it's there, you should take it!

Bye Bye

15 JUNE 2008

See you again PRESENTATION! (Pictures under constructions)
~ My 2 weeks ended with this assignment
~ I ponteng-ed a lot just for her
~ My precious time are wasted
~ Lastly, I hoped i get what i deserved
~ Thnx Chee Hoe, Yee Ting for your cooperation.

A day before Presentation
~ I spend my morning with chess clubs until 5pm (healthy development for BGC)
~ I spend my afternoon on ping pong and badminton (regret joining badminton club-expensive)
~ I spend my night gaming and somebody ask me game si=game till die!! I will cook her...
~ I spend my balance looking and memorizing script

Presentation day
~ I know i am ready
~ I know i improved
~ I know i can be better
~ I know i did a good job
~ I know, it's time to do shopping

DREAM A DREAM
In my dream, i can see how i present
In my dream, i am completely different person
In my dream, i understand my capability
In my dream, i realized i am better than who i am.

A dream dont lies
As it tells the truth
A dream can be fulfilled
As we put effort

Yesterday was history, Tommorow is mystery..
but today, is full with gifts and dreams!
Dream a dream for life~ Believe, believe and believe.
as Dreams, make up life (KT, 2008)

MIDVALLEY, HERE I COME!
- ALL right, today is gift...hence, buy stuff for yourself.

Followed Mr.Carrick there to buy his BASKETBALL shoes. As for me, i was thinking and thinking and thinking.., walking, tiring and dying.

-In between, i went to cinema to watch KUNGFU PANDA!! Awesome show...U know, we have few pairs today in AH FAI, ZER YUN!...CARRICK, SHIRLEY!...CARMEN, AH CHANG! Zi Bei-ed! Also, i met Mr Soong Eik Hung who bought CALVIN KLEIN sweater stuff, and Mr Ng Hua Ming who is still a smart and a handsome one!

-Finally!!!!i set my eyes on an ADIDAS futsal shoe and also a NIKE shirt~delayed to buy bcoz...CARRICK!!
he...he...is noob!! Come on...we know he wanted to buy, but he no gut!! Lack money? I have some if u need! Lack quality? NAH, Nike and adidas noob i teman u go hongkan! Lack Choices? Any Mall bigger than Midvalley? U make me FAINT with noob excuses...

- CARRICK HISTORY~he is too careful in spending, instead number one in saving money! He says he spend a lot in college when i am spending much much more than him!!U make me feel sorry for daddy! Hey man He says go to KL is spending!! , when i was in secondary school, i went to KL for chess almost every week! He says he is fat when i have double of his!! You are thin ok, instead anorexia-ed!

Result:
Advantage ~
1) Shirley can be slim

2) Carrick can be wealthy but remain unnoticed
Disadvantage~
1) We cannot mengekspoiltasi this little rich kid
2) He wont improved in prestigely

GOD BLESS, finally i successfully make him buy what he likes, and he started to spend lyk noob! Shh...make sure he is not here! I bought just an ADIDAS shoe for Rm19.90 and missed my NIKE shirt! Haiz...i will be back!! hehez..i spend so little.
word for u: Ask me out, pls spend! I dun go out without spending!

KUM WAI YONG~ U really asshole! In dota, u used to AFK, when we go find u at KL, you prefer to spend your time dating with your wife. Come on, give ur fren some space, you don't oni live with wife alone!
word for u: FUKC OFF! Analyse yourself.

Enough for STABBING people...i know they r angry-ing! But, no sorry for u guys!!

LAZY

11June 2008
DANG DANG! Miss the fifth class for semester two! Awesome..

Warning letter from me to Zhi Wen!
Offences:
overslept 1 ENGLISH class
Purposely skipped 1 MATHEMATIC class
Skipped 2 MORAL classes for better outcome in Eng presentation(forgivable)
Missed 1 Economic class due to tiredness
You are going to be expulsed for one more offence!
Signature,
(Lengzai)..11June 2008

EURO 2008 Results Update
Saturday, 07 June 2008
European Championships
Portugal 2-0 Turkey
Switzerland 0-1 Czech Republic

Sunday, 08 June 2008
European Championships
Austria 0-1 Croatia
Germany 2-0 Poland

Monday, 09 June 2008
European Championships
Netherlands 3-0 Italy
Romania 0-0 France


Tuesday, 10 June 2008
European Championships
Spain 4-1 Russia

PRESENTATION REHEARSAL
~ I really think i did okay for this rehearsal, a lot better from the 1st one! at least i mean, she listened to what i presented.
~ I was having my script(gulungkan) and treat it as my mike! While presentng, i actually referred to it. Then, Shanti asked me to hand it for her. Gosh, i m dead. However, things actually flow my way as i really started to present for the first time.
~ I remembered i mentioned sumting lyk..Government is to provide free uniforms for any one curricular activity, the she asked me: why my son dun have one?...i replied: He is inactive rite!? aha..brilliant and she really speechless. Yeah Yeah...

Friendster Horoscope for June 11, 2008
The Bottom Line
You are less driven about getting what you want. Compromise is looking good to you.
In Detail
After witnessing a mammoth power play that went nowhere recently, you are starting to feel less and less driven about getting what you want in a certain negotiation. Compromise is looking like the smarter and safer way to go. This may just be a phase, but it is a good time for you to readjust. Tone down your pace. Be less aggressive, and you will start to be happier. Admire the things in life that are free, and take a ride in the back seat for a while.

INTERVIEW

9 JUNE 2008

INTERVIEW SESSION
I had my interview done and i would like to rate it as an average one. Those questions are really tough if u know. Allrite, what i remembered are as follow:
~ Where and when is the Olympic for this year...
- I said, Beijing, China...date dunoe and interviewer replied..it's on 8am, 8minute , 8second on 8 August 2008...i reli zadao mei you hua jiang!

~ The second one is why BN lose so many seats this year..
- I said, due to races problems, politics issues, kerajaan x bagi bonus etc, and he added on by saying bcoz MINYAK NAIK a...inflation rate increases..allrite, ma de!

~ Another one is..Which country in China tries to freed themselves? COUNTRY????
- I ma say..HONGKONG and so on lo..the answer is TIBET, which is a STATE in CHina! Ma de..

~ I remembered another which is how many states not under BARISAN NATIONAL anymore..
- I replied, Kelantan, Selangor, Pulau Pinang, Perak....but i missed out KEDAH!! WTH man...haiz...but ok gua..BU ZHI DAO how they give points.

Basically, that is what i JI DE. I called somebody to share my experience but unfortunately SHE bz a..taoyan!! Now, besides praying for the best, find excuse for failure and hope those competitiors do lousier than me! That's all gua..hehe..

REHEARSAL ONE
I did so badly in this one. Planned to wake up 5.30am to memorize my script but then woke up 1t 8am. Haiz...juz on time for class, i smell hell! Back in class, Go there present shit lo...looking at script, refer slides, and present without confident.= RUBBISH ba! She does not reali scold me/us..but then she indirectly reminded us on what should we do and what is going to happen...I am very sry for that Ms Shanti, although i just hated u last week...but u r good i know.



FOOTBALL WORLD
Somebody somewhere asked me to make a draft on this. Well, recently i played a lot of football, one of my favourate game apart from chess. however, i used to play on road, on stony field without any boots. Pain? yes, it does..but i really wanted to play! I remembered my last football tournament was somewhere 2006! My most memorable one..imagine so many chicks watching me play, as one of the MVP der..la la..i beat 4S1, 4S2, 4s3, 4s4....4a6,4a7(semi final) but lose to K1 K2 always! MA de...!!anyway..i am the top scorer for that tournament!!haha..eliminated someone's S2!!haha.......ARSENAL IS MY FAVOURITE TEAM, alwiz the best!!
~ Football fever..
- Finally, euro 2008 here! Previosly at this stage while we were at secondary school, we love to bet on football! Either 5bucks or so..haha..i hate people betting but i myself bet! the amount is not really huge, so no worry! Maximum i bet just 100bucks!aha..usually less! Anyway..bad habit disinfected! So, forget it!


CHESS JEALOUS
Congatulations Edward for being National Master! U roxxX at the age of 15! I will remembered you the most because i claimed last year NAG from u in the playoff...but it's not important for u now as u proved u are beaters. BRAVO...

Friendster Horoscope for June 9, 2008
Aries (Mar 21 - Apr 19)
The Bottom Line
A friend is a bit paranoid. Don't defend yourself because you'll only feed into it.
In Detail
You'll enjoy a surge of power today, which could cause some problems with one of your relationships -- this person thought they were the one in charge, and it's going to be a bit painful for them to face reality, today. Handle this potentially tense situation by anticipating their objections. They are going through a bit of paranoia, and it's wisest for you not to play into it. So don't rush to defend yourself about what they're saying. They will come around eventually.

Hatress

5 JUNE 2008
I HATE U , Ms Shanti!

~Let me memaklumkan u guys bahawa..pada suatu hari, Ms Shanti telah bertemu dgn i dan beliau memberitahu i bhw..zeven, forget about her!! Life moves on..take 10minutes to analyse urself! R u happy? Well, she is really gud in reading my feelings..but then she made a blunder by stating i love Chung Yee Ting!! This reli sucks!!u noob wey...even KAR SENG dun love her! Fei Po..haha..

~Interview fixed on friday, 10am..hopefully ntg changed. Before i forget, i understood that there are an overall 3 national playerz competing for this scholarship! Hopefully i can beat dose CRICKET kia..they r having an upper hand, so?wad?haha..

~AFTER A LONG LONG RUMBLE, i have my presentation stuff ready, now i m just waiting to complete everything by next week! The real presentation is on next friday! u know..Friday is alwiz an important day nowdays..i dunow why but tat's what it is.

Co-curricular activities summary:
- Minimize disciplinary problems
- Motivate students
- Develop leadership skills
- find more chicks

- Better lifestyle(hot one)haha...

~A bit of less than 3, i m going to regret for letting u go! I really can do nothing other than wishing u all the best...aha...wont be too sad either!

Don't Leave Now
by Phoebe Dukes

don't leave me now

don't let me go

I'm in love with you

and you don't even know

I miss you already

I cant stand this pain

don't leave me drenched

in this pouring rain

don't turn around

or forget I'm here

don't leave me empty

in cold and fear

I miss you already

I can't breath without you

please, don't leave me now

I'm in love with you

A GOAL IS A DREAM WITH A DEADLINE

*Friendship*

2 JUNE 2008

A Definition of Friendship
Friendship is the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring all right out just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful friendly hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping and, with a breath of comfort, blow the rest away.

Well, i m still me, still trapped in an unknown but have to know de world!

I have my friends here...who else should i rated higher than them. Currently, no one since they are part of my life...but a true friendship for me, is something that we can feel with our soul..not just physical state! Nobody in this world can live alone, it is a fact. We tend to act, mix and even cry a lot to make friend,izit worth? U know, i know...
who is my friend?(many ba...) reliable friend? best fren? the answer getting limited and end up none. I personally thought that, the final answer should be: FAMILY= the only and the best friends we can have.

{Nilai's news update}

~Nilai's weather not doing well these days! hmph...
~Nilai might have its new Ms inti, wan khye theng can be one, but surely the previous one is so precious that she is immortal even distanced!...a bit of <3>

~Nilai's ENG113 presentation in 11days from now without any postponed.

~Scholarship interview postponed yet again.

Friendster Horoscope for June 2, 2008
The Bottom Line
A short and sweet conversation in the morning will keep you thinking all day long.
In Detail
A short and sweet conversation early in the day will plant the seeds for some interesting ideas in your head. These should blossom over the course of the day. Your mind is in an especially curious phase right now, and it will love digging into these new options or schemes. You should feel free to explore all their nuances so that you can get an idea of whether or not you will pursue them any further. Today is all about choosing a path. Don't take any steps just yet.
(it seems i can get a girlfriend soon!haha...check one for me)

Sorry to tell you that, i no longer had a choice! i meant it, seriously...