10 November 2008
So, hi..dad and mum..proud of u guys! =.=
Well, since well, pama use kind of strict ways to educate, teach and feed me. I hate but they are as similar as the rest, did wad should be done. When i saw papa today, he look much younger, energetic than me. Even at such age..having tuition classes, work et cetera, he still stick with his favourite, Badminton. Glad knowing tat he won teacher's competition for state level, gold for his team and was selected to selection for state player. Congrates papa..i wish i can be like u, doing what i like the most, living my way, simple yet happy.
So, hi..dad and mum..proud of u guys! =.=
Well, since well, pama use kind of strict ways to educate, teach and feed me. I hate but they are as similar as the rest, did wad should be done. When i saw papa today, he look much younger, energetic than me. Even at such age..having tuition classes, work et cetera, he still stick with his favourite, Badminton. Glad knowing tat he won teacher's competition for state level, gold for his team and was selected to selection for state player. Congrates papa..i wish i can be like u, doing what i like the most, living my way, simple yet happy.
Mama..aha..she was as usual, the most long gas mama i have been with. When i was small, she was still studying in university. I remembered daddy was having 900bucks monthly to support both mum and me. I cleaned rice for porridge, ate maggi as dinner and suffered hunger at the age of 6. I was forced to sleep at 8am when dad was on his first year giving tuition. Due to my stubbornness, i was hit often, painfully. I never forget the pain, as pain as u can imagine. But my dad and mum did a pretty good job, we are stable now, we can have whatever we want, nice car, nice home and anything we want as long as realistic. We were looked down once, daddy was a teacher and none reli approve his job, even his closest relative which were uneducated but rich. Now, some are broke while daddy is living a better life. My grandpa carez for that the most, he respect teacher a lot. Grandpa and dad have so much comman, stubborn, hot tempered but they are of good people. No smoke, no gamble and no drinks are their principes.
For dad, i hate the most when he hit me when small, hate him to make education as priority for me in life. When i was in primary skul, i was excellent in form1 and 2 math, i have strong english and bahasa..even i can spoke well in both. But, i started to go against them until in the end i have my bad SPM result. I knew, if i can be like most of my friends, i wont hate studying, tearing add math books while revising. I was forced to study in room for whole morning but instead of that, i was copying answers from book. I gambled lots during my secondary days, but at the very least, i am happier than who i am now, i am much energetic and i have a direction, an ambition. For now, i am lost.
For dad, i hate the most when he hit me when small, hate him to make education as priority for me in life. When i was in primary skul, i was excellent in form1 and 2 math, i have strong english and bahasa..even i can spoke well in both. But, i started to go against them until in the end i have my bad SPM result. I knew, if i can be like most of my friends, i wont hate studying, tearing add math books while revising. I was forced to study in room for whole morning but instead of that, i was copying answers from book. I gambled lots during my secondary days, but at the very least, i am happier than who i am now, i am much energetic and i have a direction, an ambition. For now, i am lost.
For mum, she was protecting me when dad trying to hit me..with rottan, chairs, belts and so on. Mama loves me lots when i was small. I saw her changing since i entered primary skul. Well, parents compete to being popular on children performances. Therefore, i was forced to attend tuition classes and the worst, i m banned from ping pong competition after whole year training but mama refused to let me play for 3days.
Dad and Mum did the right stuff, but they dunoe that..i want, badly to play chess for life. The only things that accompany me when i was crying, the reasons for me to have a direction. Dad and mum, if u all were to be blamed, it has to be, i hate u for stopping me to playchess. Just like anyone else, i have my dream. Sry, but if i have to repeat something, i will tell u guys, i wanted to skip college and everything just to play for another year. Even if one day, i am allowed to play, it wont be the same..as i had before. My dropout from asean tournament, representing malaysia..i want dad, i want it mum, but i no longer have a chance, for life!!! all this is juz a little too late. Maybe, lots late.
Looking at my prize collection, i knew i am not what i am now, i am something, but i no longer have a direction. I proved myself every once, but i am not approved, just lyk when u all were teachers, none of relatives approved ur status for both of u r poor. I wont blame anyone, but i will cry, alone. Lastly, i miss my sole Mssm 2006 gold medal, just if i can hold it once again, i will die peacefully.
Dad and Mum did the right stuff, but they dunoe that..i want, badly to play chess for life. The only things that accompany me when i was crying, the reasons for me to have a direction. Dad and mum, if u all were to be blamed, it has to be, i hate u for stopping me to playchess. Just like anyone else, i have my dream. Sry, but if i have to repeat something, i will tell u guys, i wanted to skip college and everything just to play for another year. Even if one day, i am allowed to play, it wont be the same..as i had before. My dropout from asean tournament, representing malaysia..i want dad, i want it mum, but i no longer have a chance, for life!!! all this is juz a little too late. Maybe, lots late.
Looking at my prize collection, i knew i am not what i am now, i am something, but i no longer have a direction. I proved myself every once, but i am not approved, just lyk when u all were teachers, none of relatives approved ur status for both of u r poor. I wont blame anyone, but i will cry, alone. Lastly, i miss my sole Mssm 2006 gold medal, just if i can hold it once again, i will die peacefully.
